Why do "words speak more than action"?

There is this friend I have and I really care for her. However, a few days back, she said something that really hurt me. She said that I am not her "closest" friend anymore. I seem to just be like any of her usual friends. And the reason for that? Is because, one day when she had called me up when she was upset and wanted to regain a friendship from me, I said that "Best friendship" cannot happen in a single day. Apparently, this had a huge huge impact on her.

Now the thing is, I might have said that to her and might have said to her due to some of my inner frustrations within me, that's true, but my action towards her till date reflect how much I care for her and how I treasure her friendship with me. I don't want to boast or something, but I have seriously cared for her and done a lot for her. And I did that, because I always thought of her as a best friend.

Par phir, why does all these actions do not seem to mean anything to her. Why does that one statement of mine, which I said, had a bigger impact than all the "actions" I have been doing for her. Why doesn't all this impact her equally?

I thought "Action speaks more than words"? Why does it seem to be the other way round here!

Girls seriously!!!!

Ok...so i know majority of my blog is read by female members. This post may be have a negative connotation to them but i just want to have a "disclaimer" that there are certainly exceptions and what i am going to mention is some sort of generalization (which perhaps i should not make since my sample size is really small) from what i have seen and the girls i have interacted with...

so ya...i think going back to my original context...i think Girls really need to GROW UP and start acting mature!!!! the other day, I was talking to a friend of mine and I was just stunned at the stuff she was talking in context to her past relationship...i was like "how can you do that.. That is JUST WRONG!" and all she could say was "Well I know, but I couldn't help it"... I mean come on! ....if u cant help it then u dont deserve to be in a relationship...think of the other person in the relationship and what he would go thru because of this behavior!!!

Gosh...I am so pissed off with the female members of the human populations! and too bad i would need to love one of them!

We all say Girls are emotionally more mature and all, but from my experience, I think girls cannot even control their minds!!! One day, they are into something, and the very next moment, they go into something else!!! God Dammit! Did you gals hear something called self-control and maturity!!!!

I have seen it with two girls whom i know quite close...the way they have dealt relationships is just WRONG and immature! They have NO RIGHT to play with a GUYS feeling like that!

Jab Guys move away from the relationship, then the whole world thinks that the guy is a cheat! But when Girls do the say, then o well, its some emotional crap which guys need to understand and cooperate...wt hypocrisy!!!!

all i want to say is just imagine yourself in the guys shoes...wt if ur guy treated u like tht...how would you feel? how wd u like it if the guy u loved so much one day dumps u just because he was "out" of it....

As it comes to an end, i have no more tears left

im really tired and exhausted now...at the same time i am feeling very strange and sad...

for the past few months i had been planning something....something i had been so much looking forward to...'the past three days'...

and now....after these three days... it is hard for me to grasp tht its over...i mean...something i have been waiting for all this while ....and now its over and finished...

the three days werent bad...it was actually nice... but wt im feeling strange is at the fact that it just flew by and tht its all over..tht something, which i have been waiting for ages, just seemed to blaze by...talk about relativity!!!...im back to S***** and I have to return to my usual workplace tomorrow....

the past few days brought in a lot of emotions in me...but i had no one to express it out... i wanted to cry out loud but i realized i had no more tears left in me...just absolutely no more! i just want to go back to those good old days...plz...its killing me from within...its literally killing me...

Selfishness...

So today I woke up with such a weird feeling.... first of all i woke up kinda late that pissed me off since i thought ill wake up a bit early to get some of my work done and then i see all these weird dreams!

anyhow...i have met some people i so much wish i never ever met.... i cant believe how such people could ever exist...just pure selfish! ... apparently, they dont care about anything else except their own lives... they dont even have the "common courtesy" towards friends! As a friend...i dont even expect much, but when that friend's attitude turns out to be 'like that', it just purely disgust me...

i just feel so sorry for them...

Past one month!

Hello Everyone everyone everyone..!!

finally....i am writing here after ages....so sorry to my blog readers!
Last one month was super busy!...But ya...no excuse ...

so what happened last one month? many things!.... my parents were here....my aunt and uncle were here...and it was amazing..it was too much fun....their visit just made me feel that is duniya mein koi toh hai who is my own...

khair...so dad was the first one to be here...11th of june... he saw the graduation ceremony this year (he couldnt see it last year) and that was really nice... ma joined two weeks later... it was really nice to have a family reunion...we went to vegas one weekend...mom was awed by the magnificence of the hotel...we (or rather I) played some blackjack...i won some...but lost too...so net even!

the first week of july...my aunt(mom's elder sister) and uncle had come for a week...
everyone stayed in my apartment... we went to pier 39 for 4th of july and it was great to see the crowd...though the fireworks were quite disappointing (blame it on the recession or i dont know what)...

mom left 8th july and dad left the week after.... i was so used to them being at home... that now their absence just makes me feel ajeeb... i so much miss the ghar ka khana... it was just too good to come home for lunch to see the yummy food on the table...

in short...i think their trip was a very memorable one...i could have been a bit less busy..especially during that first week of july...i got so busy with my tapeout that it got a little bit difficult to entertain aunty/uncle as well as complete my tapeout...

anyways...i really enjoyed my time with ma and papa..and now i am realizing that they are becoming more dependent on me and it gives me this sense of responsibility to take care of them...thts life i guess...at one point of time, i used be taken care by them and now slowly as people grow old, the role starts reversing... i just want to tell ma and dad that I LOVE YOU..and i love you loadssssss!!!!!

on a different note....many "other" things are happening too... no girlfriend business though....lol !... but got in touch with some "old" people... dont know if its for the good or bad... we'll see....

career wise...my internship started and i am liking it...its always good when the cash starts flowing eh...lol...jokes apart..but i think my project is a challenging one - elimination of jitter due to power supply noise...o gosh damnit...why did God have to add "noise" to power supply and why is it random!

guess thats it for now...ill try to be more regular with my blogging!

ps: now that i just proofread my blog...i realized the clutterness in my content...aah well...im too lazy to edit now :)

Will be back!

Hello everyone! A big sorry to all of you for not posting for a long time. Its not that my life has been really mundane...actually its quite the opposite - from the start of summer and my internship to my parents visit...thts why no time to write...

i will be back soon! till then - miss me :P

PS: A big hello to my three frequent blog readers (you know who you are)

Miss her!

So I don't know what but for the past few days, I have been missing someone! It's strange but I tried to suppress it even from myself but I am just not able to come in terms with it.

Till few weeks back, I used to be in constant touch with that person every single day and we used to talk about our usual day to day lives. And now for the past few days, we have completely gone out of touch! I am sure she does come online, etc, etc but for some reason, we haven't spoken for a while.

I do feel like calling her sometimes, but then I think it just wouldn't be appropiate. Perhaps, with the situation we both are in, it would just make it slightly weird! She is busy with her own life and I don't want to butt in and spoil it!

Yet, as days pass by, I realize I miss her more and more. I don't know what this means, but I JUST hope it's not that! Coz if it is that, then it would be really really unfortunate!