So finally we hit 2010....
this new year hasn't been the best so far...the year started by the demise of a dear one...though she was not keeping so well, i felt it happened a bit too suddenly...May her soul rest in peace...Aita, you will be missed...!
For some reason 2010 doesn't seem to excite me...as each day of 2010 passes by, i just start to lose faith in things more...i start to become less human and more machine...i just hope its a phase....
So do i have a new year resolution?....yes....but i'm not spitting it out here...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Sunday, December 6, 2009
old stuff...
went through my old emails in hotmail...like really old..way back in 2002, 2003...
gosh...felt strange reading a few of them...its been what almost 7-8 years now...
how things have change...so much!
gosh...felt strange reading a few of them...its been what almost 7-8 years now...
how things have change...so much!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Birthday!!!
So finally it's my birthday! ... and I turn 25! 25!!!! O gosh, I feel old!
My birthday went quite nice. The previous night (i.e. 25th) was SA's birthday, so that evening, we went out for dinner with friends. SA and I decided that we would treat them. The food was really good (there goes my gymming!). After dinner, we had about 2 hours before the clock struck 12! We walked a little bit in downtown SJ before we rushed backed home. It was obvious that these folks had something up their sleeves for my birthday and I did not even pretend to act ignorant.
At midnight, all my friends gathered at my place. The feeling of hearing knocks on my door was just so blissful. They got the most awesome ice-cream cake till date. People were hesitant to apply it on my face so that they can eat the most out of it, lol! However, having said that, AS and DB took their revenge and decorated my face with cake quite appropriately.
Uske baad, I started to unpack the gifts:). I was so excited. Even though I turned 25, the child in me still remained. I got t-shirts, key-chain, american football(i dont know why i got that since i never played tht sport..lol),etc,etc.
Apart from these, my friends made a special blog for me on my birthday. Many people left birthday messages on that blog. That was something I did not expect at all! It was really special. SS made my bday even special by making a very sweet video of the good memories in the past few years. I never felt so important in recent times:)
After the gift opening ceremony, everyone started sharing their thoughts about me. This has been the tradition over here in our birthdays, where everyone would talk about what they feel towards the birthday boy/girl. And needless to say, I was flattered to hear what all I heard!..lol!....
My friends left around 1-2am in the morning. Uske baad, I went to my room and opened my parents gift. They had packed gifts for me when I had come to M in March. They were like,"open it on your birthday" lol! There were quite a few gifts from them..tshirt, shirts, perfumes...:) It was really nice!
Next day (the actual day of my birthday), I woke up early around 10ish. Spent the morning with myself. In the evening, DB,TA,AS and I went out for dinner. I treated them (which was a surprise to them :) since they were planning on treating me..). We ended my birthday by going to a club. Had a good time there. Danced and danced and danced...
On the whole as I look back, I think this birthday has been one of the better birthdays in the past 2 years. I did wish certain people were with me on my birthday. Khair...jo bhi....
Happy Birthday Anshu!
Btw, I think a birthday is as special to the mom as it is to the child..it was on this day that she gave birth to her child...so Ma...I love you loads!
My birthday went quite nice. The previous night (i.e. 25th) was SA's birthday, so that evening, we went out for dinner with friends. SA and I decided that we would treat them. The food was really good (there goes my gymming!). After dinner, we had about 2 hours before the clock struck 12! We walked a little bit in downtown SJ before we rushed backed home. It was obvious that these folks had something up their sleeves for my birthday and I did not even pretend to act ignorant.
At midnight, all my friends gathered at my place. The feeling of hearing knocks on my door was just so blissful. They got the most awesome ice-cream cake till date. People were hesitant to apply it on my face so that they can eat the most out of it, lol! However, having said that, AS and DB took their revenge and decorated my face with cake quite appropriately.
Uske baad, I started to unpack the gifts:). I was so excited. Even though I turned 25, the child in me still remained. I got t-shirts, key-chain, american football(i dont know why i got that since i never played tht sport..lol),etc,etc.
Apart from these, my friends made a special blog for me on my birthday. Many people left birthday messages on that blog. That was something I did not expect at all! It was really special. SS made my bday even special by making a very sweet video of the good memories in the past few years. I never felt so important in recent times:)
After the gift opening ceremony, everyone started sharing their thoughts about me. This has been the tradition over here in our birthdays, where everyone would talk about what they feel towards the birthday boy/girl. And needless to say, I was flattered to hear what all I heard!..lol!....
My friends left around 1-2am in the morning. Uske baad, I went to my room and opened my parents gift. They had packed gifts for me when I had come to M in March. They were like,"open it on your birthday" lol! There were quite a few gifts from them..tshirt, shirts, perfumes...:) It was really nice!
Next day (the actual day of my birthday), I woke up early around 10ish. Spent the morning with myself. In the evening, DB,TA,AS and I went out for dinner. I treated them (which was a surprise to them :) since they were planning on treating me..). We ended my birthday by going to a club. Had a good time there. Danced and danced and danced...
On the whole as I look back, I think this birthday has been one of the better birthdays in the past 2 years. I did wish certain people were with me on my birthday. Khair...jo bhi....
Happy Birthday Anshu!
Btw, I think a birthday is as special to the mom as it is to the child..it was on this day that she gave birth to her child...so Ma...I love you loads!
Friday, September 25, 2009
One day before D day!
Today was SA's birthday and we celebrated it with style. Got cake, chips, drinks and most importantly amazing company. The best part was when everyone gave their 'speech' about SA...it was just so touching....
On a different note, today is a day before D day and I don't know what to feel. I have always been so excited for this day. Every year, since childhood, I would be waiting for this. I remember, in school, I used to dress up so nicely - I would wear coloured dresses (non-uniform). And I would take lots and lots of chocolates for my classmates and teachers. I used to just enjoy the attention I would get - everyone would notice this one guy who dressed differently from the others - the coloured dressing just made it so obvious. Everyone in the corridor passing by would mumble the soft "Happy Birthday". I used to feel like a prince. And then during recess, I would take my box of chocolates and distribute around. There were some who would so cutely ask me, "A**** one more please" and I would so proudly oblige. I was known to be really generious. lol.... Those were such nice innocent times.
And now, things seem so different. For the past 2 years, my BD has been not quite like I wished it to be. Honestly speaking, I have people around me, but somewhere deep within I seem to have lost my youth. Honestly speaking, I feel really really lonely and I miss my parents a lot. My existance perhaps matters only to them and no one else.
Sometimes, I wonder how it would be if I was not here, but somewhere else or perhaps in India. Sometimes, I want to be with someone but I can't be. Sometimes, you don't realize it before it is too late of what you could have had.
But the fact is that, I am not anywhere else but here. I am not with that someone. I realized it too late. And now I have lost it. But Life... still has to go on.
So I hope tommorow, I can begin a new day, with a new hope and new life in me and not make the mistakes I made earlier.....
On a different note, today is a day before D day and I don't know what to feel. I have always been so excited for this day. Every year, since childhood, I would be waiting for this. I remember, in school, I used to dress up so nicely - I would wear coloured dresses (non-uniform). And I would take lots and lots of chocolates for my classmates and teachers. I used to just enjoy the attention I would get - everyone would notice this one guy who dressed differently from the others - the coloured dressing just made it so obvious. Everyone in the corridor passing by would mumble the soft "Happy Birthday". I used to feel like a prince. And then during recess, I would take my box of chocolates and distribute around. There were some who would so cutely ask me, "A**** one more please" and I would so proudly oblige. I was known to be really generious. lol.... Those were such nice innocent times.
And now, things seem so different. For the past 2 years, my BD has been not quite like I wished it to be. Honestly speaking, I have people around me, but somewhere deep within I seem to have lost my youth. Honestly speaking, I feel really really lonely and I miss my parents a lot. My existance perhaps matters only to them and no one else.
Sometimes, I wonder how it would be if I was not here, but somewhere else or perhaps in India. Sometimes, I want to be with someone but I can't be. Sometimes, you don't realize it before it is too late of what you could have had.
But the fact is that, I am not anywhere else but here. I am not with that someone. I realized it too late. And now I have lost it. But Life... still has to go on.
So I hope tommorow, I can begin a new day, with a new hope and new life in me and not make the mistakes I made earlier.....
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
You belong with me!
You're on the phone with your girlfriend, She's upset
She's going off about something that you said
She doesnt get your humour like I do
I'm in the room, its a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
And she'll never know your story like I do
But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Walkin the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I cant help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on the park bench thinkin to myself
Hey isnt this easy?
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
You say you find I know you better than that
Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that?
She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standin by, waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that?
You belong with me
You belong with me
Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're about to cry
I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams
I think I know where you belong. I think I know it's with me.
Can't you see that I'm the one who understand you?
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me
Standing by or waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know that
You belong with me
You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me
You belong with me
Monday, September 7, 2009
Nature's Beauty
So yesterday, KB, SS, GT and I went out for a hike to this national park out here. This place is famous for Redwood forest. I was pretty excited to go there because I wanted to go away from the usual day to day activities and blend with nature (it also helps me meditate). We left at around noon and reached there at 2pm. It's this huge forest next to the ocean. We thought of taking this trail that reaches the beach. I had a really good time with these folks. We sang, we danced and we did all kinds of masti on our way. The hike was quite strenuous and we could not complete it since it was getting dark. We returned halfway and by evening time, we were all drained out.
On our way back, the weather was really interesting. The whole SF city and the GGB was covered with cloud and I must say it has been the most beautiful view I have ever seen of the GGB covered with clouds. We took this drive up the hill where we could see the bridge from the top and it looked quite spectacular. Just felt like heaven. Seriously. I must say that we are fortunate enough to live in such a beautiful place.
We stopped at an Indian place to have some delicious desi chaats! The server there was really charming:) lol and GT and I were contemplating which part of India she would be from. After our meal, I asked her where she was from and she said that she was half black and half Syrian. Ok, there goes our speculation for a six!
Well, i am so happy tomorrow is a holiday! can sleep as much i want...and o ya...i will update photos on facebook. do have a look ;)
On our way back, the weather was really interesting. The whole SF city and the GGB was covered with cloud and I must say it has been the most beautiful view I have ever seen of the GGB covered with clouds. We took this drive up the hill where we could see the bridge from the top and it looked quite spectacular. Just felt like heaven. Seriously. I must say that we are fortunate enough to live in such a beautiful place.
We stopped at an Indian place to have some delicious desi chaats! The server there was really charming:) lol and GT and I were contemplating which part of India she would be from. After our meal, I asked her where she was from and she said that she was half black and half Syrian. Ok, there goes our speculation for a six!
Well, i am so happy tomorrow is a holiday! can sleep as much i want...and o ya...i will update photos on facebook. do have a look ;)
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